lagging
There are days I feel awfully behind at life…
As if if I don’t act right now, I may never.
As if I’m too late to a party I don’t know how to arrive to
Like I’ve been given directions but my ETA was yesterday.
It’s like it’s time to finish when I haven’t even started
It’s time to be educated but what at
It’s time to be successful but what for?
These are things I think about at the moments when I feel most stagnant
If the day is long but the boxes aren’t ticked
Or the clock has done its rounds but I’ve yet to finish my list.
I guess that’s what they call guilt, hey?
Or shame
For not making the mark or reaching some sort of “fame”
Question is, who sets the standard here?
Who am I trying to please?
There’s really no one running after me forcing me to be
Something I’m not yet or something other than I am
I can really be my worst critic
And it doesn’t help to compare what’s in front of me
To what seems to be the reality for them
snap out of it
In moments when I think too much, I like to switch out of my head and into the Word
I’m living my life for the audience of One
The Creator and The Sustainer of all things.
His standard for me is to worship Him in all.
In the way I brush my teeth, in the way I make a smoothie
In the way I read a book, in the way I watch a movie.
When I’m stuck in a guilt cycle,
I need to remember His grace.
If He can love me and cut me some slack
Then I too can do the same.
I’m only in charge of this moment
so with it I’ll put a smile of God’s face
I’m only in charge of this moment
Or else I’m going to go insane.
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-14
